Sunday, December 13, 2015

Image move

I am currently undergoing a massive move of images, therefore, until it is complete, some images will not show up.

Sunday, December 6, 2015

New items for sell on ebay

I have posted 16 new things for sell on my eBay page. These are in addition to the items I posted last week. There are tops in sizes medium through 1X, jeans sizes 12-14, and other items in various sizes.

Here are the new items:

Items I posted last week:

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Instagram outfit photos

I haven't posted any Outfit Posts since June of last year, in part because it is easier to post a photo to my Instagram than it is to make a whole outfit post. So, I decided to share here most of the outfit photos I have posted to Instagram over the last year (oldest to newest).

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Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Depression and job hunting

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Searching for a job is a frustrating and tedious process for a lot of people, and even more so when you have depression. Some people with depression struggle with job hunting because it makes them question their professional value; the longer a job hunt takes, the more they begin to question whether they are an employee worth having. At my previous three jobs, I was offered a promotion within a few months, and I have consistently received great performance reviews; so, while I certainly struggle with these kinds of self-deprecating thoughts, most of the time my logical mind is able to fairly quickly say, "Hey, that's not true!"

Where I really struggle in a job search is accepting that things are the way they are; the best candidate for a job may not even be considered because resume searching software does not find a specific keyword or the employer has a rigid idea of what the "right" candidate is. The truth is, employers often have to wade through many resumes every time they are looking to fill a position, and looking over every resume thoroughly is usually not realistic. And even if it were, the perfect resume does not mean the perfect employee. Even a perfect interview does not mean the perfect employee. So, what all of this means is, no matter how great of an employee you are (how wonderful your resume is, or how well you interview), you often will not get the chance to demonstrate it. Of course you can tweak your resume, but that will only get you so far, as there are a million other reasons you may not be given a job. People with depression, practically by definition, are not very resilient, and resiliency is one of the most important traits a job hunter can possess; when you put yourself out there professionally time and time again, you need to be able to not take it personally when you do not get the outcome you hoped for. Unfortunately for me, this is not something I have mastered yet, and perhaps never will.

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Items for sale on eBay

I have posted a few things for sale on eBay; the sizes range from medium to 1X.

Friday, November 6, 2015

The Bible vs. Homosexuality

Today I was re-reading some Facebook notes I wrote, and thought some of them would be worth sharing here. The one I am sharing today I wrote six years ago, and I titled the Facebook post "The Bible vs. Homosexuality," here it is:


It always amazes me how many people use religion to justify hate. Especially when most people use Bible verses as their sole justification for their bigotry. 99.9% of the people who use Bible verses as justification for their hate and intolerance against homosexuals don't follow many of the other things in the Bible. If you are going to say homosexuality is wrong because the Bible says so, then you shouldn't be ignoring the items in the Bible that aren't convenient for you... that makes you a hypocrite; you either: 1) Believe everything in the Bible is the word of God and *try* to follow everything, or 2) You admit to yourself that a book that old that has been reinterpreted many, many times will reflect the bias of those that have rewritten it, therefore everything in it cannot logically be the pure word of God.

Below are a few of the many things the Bible says about how we should live our lives. Of course *some* of the Bible verses can possibly be interpreted differently, however, if you try to argue that all/most of the verses mean something different, well, you're in denial. Lastly, in the interest of full disclosure, these verses are taken from the King James version; feel free to look them up in your preferred version of the Bible (and I encourage you to do so as different versions of the Bible interpret things differently... part of the problem with assuming that everything in the Bible is God's word).

Do not eat beef, chicken, pork, rabbit, shrimp, or various other animals
Leviticus 11:1-11:47
(Too long to quote here, click the verse link above to view)

Do not wear blended fabric (a lot of clothes are blends)
Deuteronomy 22:11
"Thou shalt not wear a garment of divers sorts, as of woollen and linen together."
Leviticus 19:19
"Ye shall keep my statutes. Thou shalt not let thy cattle gender with a diverse kind: thou shalt not sow thy field with mingled seed: neither shall a garment mingled of linen and woollen come upon thee."

Women cannot cut their hair, and men cannot have long hair
1 Corinthians 11:4-11:15
(Too long to quote here, click the verse link above to view)

Men must never shave/trim their beards
Leviticus 19:27
"Do not cut the hair at the sides of your head or clip off the edges of your beard."

Women should not wear men's clothing, and vise versa (how many women nowadays don't ever wear pants?)
Deuteronomy 22:5
"The woman shall not wear that which pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man put on a woman's garment: for all that do so are abomination unto the LORD thy God."

Do not work on Saturday/Sunday (which day depends on which day you consider the Sabbath)
Leviticus 19:30
"Ye shall keep my sabbaths, and reverence my sanctuary: I am the LORD."

Do not get tattoos or piercings
Leviticus 19:28
"Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD."

Do not mix various seeds when planting
Leviticus 19:19
"Ye shall keep my statutes. Thou shalt not let thy cattle gender with a diverse kind: thou shalt not sow thy field with mingled seed: neither shall a garment mingled of linen and woollen come upon thee."
Deuteronomy 22:9
"Thou shalt not sow thy vineyard with divers seeds: lest the fruit of thy seed which thou hast sown, and the fruit of thy vineyard, be defiled."

Slavery is okay (as long as they are foreigners, not Israelites)
Ephesians 6:5
"Servants, be obedient to them that are your masters according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in singleness of your heart, as unto Christ"
Leviticus 25:44-25:46
(Too long to quote here, click the verse link above to view)
Exodus 21:1-21:6
(Too long to quote here, click the verse link above to view)
1 Timothy 6:1-6:2
"Let as many servants as are under the yoke count their own masters worthy of all honour, that the name of God and his doctrine be not blasphemed. And they that have believing masters, let them not despise them, because they are brethren; but rather do them service, because they are faithful and beloved, partakers of the benefit. These things teach and exhort."

It is okay to beat your slaves (as long as the slave doesn't die right away)
Exodus 21:20-21:21
"And if a man beats his male or female servant with a rod, so that he dies under his hand, he shall surely be punished. Notwithstanding, if he remains alive a day or two, he shall not be punished; for he is his property."
Luke 12:47-12:48
"And that servant who knew his master’s will, and did not prepare himself or do according to his will, shall be beaten with many stripes. But he who did not know, yet committed things deserving of stripes, shall be beaten with few. For everyone to whom much is given, from him much will be required; and to whom much has been committed, of him they will ask the more."

Anyone who curses their parents should be put to death
Leviticus 20:9
"For every one that curseth his father or his mother shall be surely put to death: he hath cursed his father or his mother; his blood shall be upon him."

Adulterers should be put to death
Leviticus 20:10
"And the man that committeth adultery with another man's wife, even he that committeth adultery with his neighbour's wife, the adulterer and the adulteress shall surely be put to death."
Deuteronomy 22:22
"If a man be found lying with a woman married to an husband, then they shall both of them die, both the man that lay with the woman, and the woman: so shalt thou put away evil from Israel."

Rapists must pay their rape victim's father a penalty, and marry their victim (talk about justice for the victim!)
Deuteronomy 22:28-22:29
"If a man finds a young woman who is a virgin, who is not betrothed, and he seizes her and lies with her, and they are found out, then the man who lay with her shall give to the young woman’s father fifty shekels of silver, and she shall be his wife because he has humbled her; he shall not be permitted to divorce her all his days."

Innocent children can be killed to punish their parents
2 Samuel 12:14-12:19
"Howbeit, because by this deed thou hast given great occasion to the enemies of the LORD to blaspheme, the child also that is born unto thee shall surely die."

Wives are a man's property that God can use to punish man
2 Samuel 12:11
"Thus saith the LORD, Behold, I will raise up evil against thee out of thine own house, and I will take thy wives before thine eyes, and give them unto thy neighbour, and he shall lie with thy wives in the sight of this sun."
Zechariah 14:2
"For I will gather all nations against Jerusalem to battle; and the city shall be taken, and the houses rifled, and the women ravished; and half of the city shall go forth into captivity, and the residue of the people shall not be cut off from the city."
Deuteronomy 21:10-21:14
(Too long to quote here, click the verse link above to view)

Fathers can sell their daughters into sexual slavery
Exodus 21:7-21:9
(Too long to quote here, click the verse link above to view)

A man having more than one wife is okay; many, many verses mention polygamous husbands (with no condemnation)
Exodus 21:10
"If he take him another wife; her food, her raiment, and her duty of marriage, shall he not diminish."
2 Samuel 12:8
"And I gave thee thy master's house, and thy master's wives into thy bosom, and gave thee the house of Israel and of Judah; and if that had been too little, I would moreover have given unto thee such and such things."

Of course there are many, many more examples than the ones I shared above. If you are going to be a bigot, don't use the Bible to justify it unless you are willing to hold yourself to all the standards created by the Bible, including the ones above. And if you insist on quoting the Bible, remember Matthew 7:1... "Judge not, that ye be not judged."

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

11 Weeks of Pink with Special Effects

Eleven weeks ago I had my hair dyed pink. I have had my roots touched up once since then. Today we dyed my hair back to its natural color, or at least we tried; the hair must not have been saturated enough, so, we will have to go another round. I used to dye my hair wild colors regularly, however, it had been about ten years since I had done so. Back in the day I used Maniac Panic dye. This time around, I decided to try Special Effects because I heard great things about its staying power; they were certainly correct! I thought I'd share what my hair looked like today right before we dyed it back to brown.

I used Special Effects' "Atomic Pink" which is supposed to glow under black light, but unfortunately I never got to test that out. If I was to dye my whole head pink again, I think I'd probably mix the Atomic Pink with their "Cupcake Pink" so it would have more of a blue tint, and not be quite as dark of pink.

Please forgive my oily hair; since my hair had been bleached (before I put in the pink eleven weeks ago), I wanted to make sure my hair wasn't too dry when I put permanent dye in it. The left photo was taken with flash, and the right photo without; I'd say the right photo is probably a slightly better indicator of what the actual color was. The left photo shows how my bleached (yellow) hair had started to peak through as the dye faded. I am super impressed with Special Effects and I can't imagine wanting to use anything else (for wild colored hair) in the future.

For those that don't follow me on Instagram, I'll include a few photos of what my hair looked like prior to today. The first photo was taken within 24 hours of dying my hair. The second photo was taken five and a half weeks after I dyed it (about a week after my roots were touched up). The last photo was taken eight weeks after I dyed it.

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Friday, August 7, 2015

Good Morning, Gun

Today I watched "Good Morning, Killer" on Netflix. There were several unintentional hilarious moments; this one really had me rolling because it reminded me of Completing the Pentagram.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Ava & Viv & Darth Vader

Many of you may of heard of Target's plus size line, called Ava & Viv, that launched in Spring. I have been anxiously waiting since then for the Fall 2015 line because it had input from GabiFresh, GarnerStyle, and NicoletteMason. Today I checked Target to see if the Fall collection was on-line yet, and this is what I discovered:

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Depression and Sandra Bland

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It was two weeks after the Sandra Bland incident before I watched the dash cam video. Lately I feel bombarded by examples of how awful people are every time I go on-line, and sometimes I feel like I am only one more example away from never being able to get out of bed again; therefore, I often find it necessary to self-protect... to not click the link about the Presidential hopeful who publicly terrorized a senator, the article about how congress is trying to defund Planned Parenthood through a trucking bill, or the post about how someone thinks the Confederate flag/American Civil War had nothing to do with slavery.

Eventually my need to self-protect was trumped by my need to be informed, and I watched the Sandra Bland traffic stop. There is no question in my mind that State Trooper Brian Encinia behaved unprofessionally; additionally, I find it difficult to come up with an explanation for his behavior other than a combination of racism and a preoccupation with power. If you do not feel that Encinia behaved inappropriately, then I highly recommend you watch this video by The Young Turks which does a great job of explaining what was improper about the traffic stop.

All that said, I feel that every aspect of the Sandra Bland case has been thoroughly discussed, except one. I absolutely think it is possible for someone to be murdered in prison and for it to be made to look like a suicide; I also do not feel that it is a stretch to consider that someone in law enforcement would murder Bland because of all the "noise" she was making about the traffic stop and arrest. However, it further troubles me that such a significant number of people discount the possibility that Bland did kill herself; as someone who has questioned many times how it is possible to appreciate life when it can be so horrible, I see that it is quite possible that her death was a suicide.

Bland undoubtedly had more history with depression than she reported on her intake form. Most people with depression do not talk/write about it openly, and even those that do, they still keep a lot to themselves. No matter how close you are to someone, and how well you think you know them, there are plenty of things that they are not sharing; this is significantly more true of people who suffer from a mental illness. People with mental illnesses know that if you don't suffer from their mental illness, there is a limited amount of understanding that you will be able to provide; often it seems best to filter our thoughts as to not be looked upon as "crazy." It is entirely possible, dare I say, likely, that Bland's family and friends had no idea how depressed she was; even the people closest to us rarely know the extent of our dark thoughts. If I find humanity this depressing, I can only imagine how much worse I would feel if I belonged to a racial group that is regularly a target of some of the worst kinds of people. Add to that, being assaulted by a person in a position in power because of a traffic incident, and it is difficult for me to imagine a person with a history of depression and suicide not questioning whether she wants to live anymore. Even strong people are sometimes weak.

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Monday, July 27, 2015

Jennifer Lopez wears sheer!

Facebook has the most ridiculous news headlines. When I was still giggling over this one hours later, I decided to make a meme. Maybe Jennifer Lopez wearing sheer on her 46th birthday (and looking amazing) would be news worthy if she did not wear sheer dresses ALL.THE.TIME. (and always look amazing).

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Depression and medication

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As the saying goes, "It works until it doesn't."

The trouble with anti-depressants is that the body (or, at least, my body) gets used to them; what once made you feel like a normal, emotionally-balanced person eventually has no effect on you at all. So, your doctor will increase your dose, normalcy returns, and you wait until it stops working again.

The cycle repeats until you reach the maximum dosage of the medication, and then you have to start all over again with a different prescription. Each time you feel more hopeless, it gets harder to bring yourself to continue your doctor visits, and you begin to wonder: What is the point?

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Thursday, May 14, 2015

Depression and fame

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This afternoon I was watching an interview clip with Sergei Polunin from a few years ago. Sergei was the youngest appointed principal dancer in the Royal Ballet when he decided to leave. At one point in the interview, the interviewer asks: "Was that the issue? It sounds as though you have more freedom now, you are happier now, so, perhaps you didn't have sufficient (freedom) before." Sergei's reply is: "Um, I couldn't say that I am happy now... I'm still just finding... what I am going to do, like, what is the thing to do, I am gonna to explore different directions."

The interview got me thinking about how even people who have achieved incredible success in their lives can struggle with how to find and maintain happiness. After watching the interview, I took a look at the comment thread under the video. Anyone who has ever watched a video on YouTube, knows that this should be avoided; internet comment threads are all too often full of judgmental, logical-less, negativity. As I expected, many of the comments were expressing disapproval that someone would choose to leave such a prestigious position; some comments went as far as to imply that Sergei is selfish for choosing to leave the Royal Ballet; that because he is a talented dancer, he is obligated to share his talent with as large of an audience as possible, regardless of whether he could find happiness in that.

All of this got me thinking about how society responds when someone who is famous and/or wealthy reveals that they struggle with depression. Public response is always disbelief that "someone who has it all" could suffer from depression. I can only assume that this sense of shock is not shared by anyone who has actually ever suffered from depression.

Depressed thoughts usually take one of two very different forms. The first kind are thoughts that have a complete disconnect from reality; where every possible negative thing that happens in your life is exaggerated to cartoonish proportions. You forgot your phone at home today? That is because you are a worthless, stupid idiot who doesn't deserve to own something valuable. You take every mistake and misstep in your life and find a way to berate yourself for it to alarming lengths. The thoughts are so far disconnected from reality that it does not matter how "blessed" or "lucky" others feel you are.

The second kind of depressed thoughts are in a way, the opposite of the first; rather than being completely disconnected from reality, you are too connected to reality. This is where you spend too much time contemplating philosophical questions that no one will be able to answer to your satisfaction. I am hesitant to provide examples of the types of thoughts, because they are all too likely to be dismissed with religious rhetoric. Overspoken phrases like "God has a plan," are of no help when one is contemplating why their life matters (beyond to those who know them). In these kind of thoughts, even if you are in a position of current relative influence in society, it will never seem like much when you are comparing yourself in terms of things like the lifespan of humankind.

Whether someone is depressed because they are disconnected from reality, or because they are too connected to reality, neither fame nor fortune will allow them a "pass." In fact, the rich and famous as likely more susceptible to depression; in addition to the pressure they put on themselves, they also have to deal with significant pressure put on them by society.